Hey!! i've just finished my day Just like That.And i'm sure glad that i've manage to overcome it already.The looks in their eyes..Hahaz..I'm back to where i'm supposed to be working towards to.aww..How relieved am i? VERY!!

I'm walking now,taking the path which i've chosen.Just don't make me remember it so much..How i hope i am dory fish..it manage to forget things instantly even when someone is infront of you...haha...but i won't want to forget things when i'm with him..

So many things to work on now.N'level is just round the corner and yet i'm still so slack+slag+lazy...is this my end??..arGHh...i'M not afraid of what future i'll have..but it's da promised i've made...if i could...i don't mind dancing my way thru' life..If ever life is a bed of roses..but it's something that will NEVER come true..    and which [NEVER] is defined as not even for a moment will it be easy life..

today i've tried learning something from the class..well..i do think that ..being in a group of people who knows how to study is so much better than playing..but are this people patient to just teach me even the basic...siGhx...i'm so far from them...

Form teacher cried today..saying that we're all heartless..but seriously i don't think i am...i don't know why?!?
and also the things that people don't like about her..are something so minor which grew and became so big...in a way of teaching..maybe i could say i don't like it ..well..at least a little..but her life story seems to be teaching me something every minute... well maybe is cause it's something i'd want in my family and which i can NEVER do it..siGhx.. one thing i remember from her was..

When one day she was walking home..a stranger accidently banged into her.Immediately the stranger said sorry to her and she replied "it's okay" in a nice tone . When she reach home..she was feeling dead tired..hoping that the rest of the day will be ok.When she opened her laptop to do her work she realised that her laptop could not be switched on.She was wondering why for she just used it the day before..Immediately on the spot she called her youngest son and daughter to come in.And scolded them straight without even checking ..because they were home the whole day.Her mood changes and waited for her husband to be back from work to help her fixed the com.When he touched the laptop..plucked everything properly..soon she then realised that her tired-ness cause her to pluck the switch wrongly..

Moral: To a stranger you could be so kind..but to your own family member especially your child..your flesh and blood...something that they've not done..got scolded and shouted by you..
 
Do you get what it mean? i hOpe you do..

Didn't do much though..But i'm sick.
Sunday ,my head just felt as though thousands of hammer banging just keep going and going in my head..i couldn't stand it but i had to.I had to control and endure with the pain while working..and only after 3-4 hours.Then i'm smart enough to find panadol to eat..and well..thats the first panadol i've eaten this year..firstly i was quiet..everyone was like.."Sarah are you okay?" i kept quiet and smile.
But awhile later..i began jumping around..I'm cured..it's no longer painful.I can dance,and *hell broke Loose*...Haha...Thats what they said.. I'm still having slight cough and runny nose..but it's getting better...*thanks papa..For boiling herbal tea for us*

I did not attend school today..cause i was already late,and i didn't want detention.I called ting and kim wondering where are they..kim din't pick uP my call but ting did..she was on the way to school but most probably will be late to0..and since both of us were sick because we got the cold together which swimming.We met up ,ate YA KUN for breakfast then went to her house.Wanted to see da doc.But very LONG..argh..siGh..papa and mummy don't know again..but it's okay..i've enjoyed myself..we cleared her room..and of course Dance..Gosh..it's So stupid..But very cute Leh...haha..

My mother highlighted my inner hair for me! cooL..but i helped her first..hers Is sO very Blonde..So cOOl..mine is inside ..thats why cannot see..haha..but i just Like iT..i'm happier each day..knowing that he really loves me and wanna be true..i'm sure of this ..And i love him to0..*Let go of the past..for your future awaits..*

Saturday is here again..and i'm here to make a confession..haha..well it's not really a confession but something which i've feared my entire 16 years of life ..and that i've done it..
I've swam the deep pooL..Laugh all you want but i'm proud that i manage to even enter them..though i'm still not very good but at least i can go from one end to the other.Two days i've swam,and it's like S0ooo tiring.took half my life to even complete one set..but yes..Success..
There are still lots to learn ..Gawd..can someone be kind enough to TEACH me..how to swim fast..how to trap water..how to hold my breath longer..haha..though i can SWIM only..those are some factors i wanna learn.

I'm sick..sick sick sick..I'm getting cold by the body and warmer by the forehead..i'm getting mucus rolling down my nose..Argh..grosS..stomach upsetting...i'm sO restless ...beyond imagination..

My results..are all in a mess..But i can do better...without studying..i'm on the borderline for failing..but yet i can do it..but I feel nothing to make me study..Nothing that could motivate me...i'm to0 strong headed..cause something which i've said..Is THAT..I'm gonna make it this year though..i'm gonna win myself..and especially Peng Guan..i just could not accept it that..he's been sleeping all the way...playing basketball after school..going after girls..but still manage to pass..Argh..He's going _DOwn..   saY i'm bad..full of competative thinking towards that ass..But arrrrrgh...No way am i gonna let this happen..

The first step to getting the things you want out of life is this: Decide what you want.

It's not true that life is one damn thing after another;

it is one damn thing over and over.

It's NOT a TIME OUT yet..We'll just go according to what was planned..aww..come to think of it again..i seriously don't want to giVe this uP..Though it seems quite wrong..But still I can't give in to that..i Have to go for what i really want !! 

I'm gonna GRAB every opportunities this lifetime have for me.or not i'll CREATE it myself..i've never been so Sure in my life for this thing..Some part of me do have a little side that says..*y0u're n0t thinking bout that are you?* BUt i'll go for IT..  I've not told someone that i'm willing to do it..thus causing me to regret not saying it in the First place but n0w i'm not gonna miss this chance..

..When i say that i won't go for another new one..I mean it..i ain't g0nna be like those says* ahh...i promised i won't find a new boyfriend...cause i'm afraid of being hurt already..*BULLS.. *Those people are still moving on with other guys...sounded so pathetic but haha..it's a motive so clear.. and i don't want and i won't allow this to happen to me...so Trust me..  This may be the last..for i'm tired of another..or maybe the second last..     ::GaWd::maY be quite a difficult thing to do..buT..i'm determined enough!! but what must we all understand ..we can't let the chance..just pass us bY.. 

"The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart."
b0red..i aM super bored..sch00l just shucks t0 da core..dunch yA think s0?aRgh..why musT there ever bE educatioN..i waNT to LOSE WEIGHT ...to0o0o0o0o0 plumb already..can someone just teach me how ??

I'm starting to blog again.Cause i just feel like! the feelings back to me again. I'm happy everyday cause i'm with s0meone.. but yet at the same time.i want no one to be sad.Cause happiness is the word for all now..

Used to be b0red of all things, now i really feel like getting all the old feelings back again..Example netball ..i miss netball like SO MUCH.gosh.. i feel as though a part of me is gone.i admit i'm sh0rt but i can't helped it.Argh... nvm That.. hehez..Npcc..it's been so long since i've been attending them.well due to some stupid conflicts..haha..i miss my little cadets..

Yesterday i've Just attended a wedding dinner and i'm feeling so ::tired:: You all should see how i wore man..So formal cause i'm wearing a black Skirt sleeveless blouse and a shawl around my neck to shoulder..SO COOL..look quite pretty k..Nah..just kidding..i just look mature.. my father and my other relative just keep intro-ing me to all my 0ther relative..as if i'm like some sort of vase.So many relative i seriously don't recongnise even my 2nd cousin..i seem to know NONE..argh..such a complicated family tree..So many different names to remember..worst than my maths algebra..Haha..

And  in the morning i have to go to work.i'm working full SHIFT.. TIRED.. but i would rather work than study..i'm left with half life now.Haha..

A new month is here..prelim exam is also here..I don't even know till friday only when my friends were talking about it. Time fly so fast..And my hair still grow so slow...HEHEz..anyway... ..  Miss you though..hope to see you s0on..        Sign language rOcks..I'm gonna learn More..

Just finished work..Though i'm tired but still i had lots of fun.Especially with my idotic friends.

woaH..monday is coming! and i'm.. .. NOT READY but yet yearning to get back soon. siGh..

happy yet am noT..gaWd.. i'm Okay with anyThing anyway..

I have not complete my art..goNna Be in deeP sh!T when schooL reopens..